Ever get the feeling that for some reason you are meant to be doing something?

Has commenced.

Based on the Myers Briggs model for personality types, this type of test, but a lot more complicated is used around the world to see what type of person you are and in what way you are suited to a business which may want to employ you.

I am an ENTJ read up on that one ! lol

The site Addy is: http://www.advisorteam.com/user/kts.asp

The Site with all the information about the Personality Types is:

http://www.keirsey.com/

Have fun!!

Lori

What a week end it has been, Party time Friday, Saturday and Sunday..

Some weekends are like never-ending fun fests, others are dullsville. The most interesting aspect of my week end so far (since it has not yet finished), the visit to the casino.

I watched men playing cards tonight, who were probably professional gamblers, and I was in awe of them.. its incredibly powerful feeling as you watch these men hand over wads of cash and get little metal and plastic chips then throw them away on the turn of a card. Some of the players were Italian looking, with darkish glasses, big watches and diamond encrusted rings, other guys were like more subtly dressed, with the only sign of wealth being the black onyx and gold ring on his pinky fingers. All the men were studied and determined except for one, who got rather distressed each time he lost, he was a little older than me, and kept playing with his chips nervously and looking around at us, the watchers, and not paying attention to the table, even one old blocked leaned over and told him to pack it in for the night.

I thought it was scary when I saw all those desperate ppls playing on the pokies not looking left or right, just concentrating on the screen in front of their eyes.. made me think that I am glad we don't have pokies around Perth. Whilst I was watching these men gamble, I was struck by a remembrance of a song, by Kenny Rodgers, “You gotta know when to hold em, know when to fold em, know how to walk away, when the deal comes in…”

I am going to go away next yr, and I am going to lose the weight I need to! woohoo! I am so excited! I tried to drink diet coke today, my conscience revolted and after 4 sips, I put the bottle down and did not touch it again. I think I am winning my fight over this addiction I have to Diet Coke.

must go.. need some sleep

Last night / This morning, Mark had a nitemare.

He refused to tell me about it, but he woke up and I think he was distressed, cos it woke me.. and he grabbed onto me really tightly like he would never let go.

I got a crick in my neck from it.. but that was ok. Its scary to think one person loves me that much.

Well its the late night shift.

I have been without diet coke for nearly a week, and have read up on it some more and it is scary. My mind boggles with the thought of the potential damage that could be caused by the intake of it. I have a feeling I will start feeling healthier without it.

I think I am moving closer to my calling.. ppl talk to me.. I find it hard to understand sometimes. Considering how hard I find it to communicate my real feelings about things, perhaps this is my karma, to learn from others how to be open.

Someone I barely knew when I was on a BBS cropped op in an IRC channel I was in. He was sorta a fringe dweller, sometimes hung out in the same group, and apparently attended my 21st (amazing cos I don't remember inviting him). Recently he's been online and shit stirring..

The other night took the cake. He claimed he knew me, like cos he remembered where I lived, and who my friends were. Then he brought up stuff about my former friend of 10 years from school. In the main channel where I was talking, I went ballistic, and probably making the whole situation worse.

There are reasons why ppl stay not spoken about. She was one of them. I took 5 yrs off chat channels to break completely from the past and to reinvent myself.. the stuff I went through during the last 18 months of our friendship I will never forget. I still have not accepted, and I want to know why people said and did the things that said and did, and thought nothing of the consequences.

Compared to who I was before, I am a shadow of my former self. All I can think of was I did something really bad to get the shit I did. Hence my beliefs in Karma, my initial reactions to my experiences created negative Karma.. now I take everything in my stride. Occasionally I allow myself to feel anger. But more recently, I have found the anger returns much quicker.

I perceive this as a fault, and aim to control my anger and emotional outbursts (grin)

Take care lovely ppls

Saw a movie tonight - it was average, went out after with friends from the movie - that was good.

could my life get any better? I think not! heheheeh

This is a list of things I need

To lose weight
diet coke - my mouth is watering at the thought
sleep
true friends
imagination
music
more cute cats

I have gone a few days now with out diet coke and its all I think about at this time of night.. I am going to drink a lot of water and go to bed I think. LOL

I wonder what tomorrow will be like

The heat of the day seems to have passed now.

However, I still sweat, which is kinda of cleansing in a weird way. Since we have a house inspection, I am ensuring that everything is spotless. Oh not to be a Virgo! I swear I am going to turn into a harsh task mistress, or end up with an ulcer cos I worry about everything too much.

Hence my lack of enthusiasm for working, I am trying to embrace a life which is more relaxing and less stressful. I want to enjoy things, like the sunsets and sunrises I like to share with ppl.

My aim is to achieve total peace within myself, I know that every 7 years, a human has a whole new body, it takes some cells 7 yrs to renew themselves. This year I turn 28, I am treating this as my rebirth, the next 7 years are going to be awesome. By the time I turn 28, I will be a whole new person.

That is my intention in any case.