what is stress?
attending a family gathering.
this is what i have to do - attend one this afternoon. Meet ppl I havent met before, smile at the cousin I really dislike, and her Mother, who is rude to me cos I am not perfect or some thing
I am filled with insecurities. They all have expectations. I feel like a stranger in my own family, each time there is a gathering I sit mostly alone or with my gran, sometimes with dad. I feel trapped when i am in room with a relative. Like awkward ppl that cos of blood ties you have to get on with or be polite too.
I havent slept yet
i have sat awake in bed all nite
blah