well blogger obviously chucked a hissy fit and posted the same thing three times

*deletes 2 entries*

i need sleep.

morning
my partner and i have been discussing the terrorist acts recently, especially after hearing about the attacks in Mombasa on Israeli’s. Many people are feeling very uneasy about the US’s whole approach to the threats it faces, now we must also consider Israel’s reaction too. Even more frighteningly, George Bush wants the UN to sanction pre-emptive strikes from countries who believe they are underthreat from others. The US is lumbering around like a bull in a china shop, under attack from all sides, largely due to its not so effective foreign policies over the years. After a few hours of gasbagging, my partner found this excerpt from the Nuremburg trials, post World War 2.

“Of course the people don’t want war. But after all, it’s the leaders of the country who determine the policy, and it’s always a simple matter to drag the people along whether it’s a democracy, a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. All you have to do is tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to greater danger. It works the same way in any country.”

This is the common trait for all countries at war — we are experiencing similar protests here. Anti war protests, being called “un-australian” because people do not want war. I know there are similar protests being held around the world by many others. So why do I put this quote up to read? Because the man whom i have quoted was put to death. His name?

Herman Goering.

just think about that.

some people make me so angry.

this is kinda going to be a man bashing session. I don’t usually indulge in those, however after yesterday, i am going to be a little general. I do understand that not all men are pigs, most are fine and don’t have an attitude, so please don’t get offended.

I know some dickheads from IRC the #sydney channel who really really manage to bug me from time to time. They like bitching about fat people. How disgusting fat people are, how they hate fat people cuz they are fat, look bad, and cost us money with the associated health problems.

So i called him a few choice names, and pointed out to him fat people aren’t all lazy, ugly and dumb and deserve to die. Not all fat people are fat because they have bad eating and health habits. Then came the horrible part.

They then said i must be one of the fat people because i was defending them, and that i was being over emotional, and i was stifling someone’s opinion by getting mad at him and was being personal. Well, i might not have super model looks, but if someone doesnt stand up for people who don’t fight back then its just not fair for those who can’t object cuz they are too scared of being put down and belittled which is what ended up happening to me.

like excuse me for being a woman, but what gives some men the right to assume women are being over emotional when a women thinks that something a man says is bullshit. Its like oh you’re having a period right? or you are too personally involved to make an objective comment, oh you’re angry, well why should we listen to you, since you are being an irrational female. This is how alot of men have treated women through the centuries, belittle them and make them feel unimportant and worthless. Things like that make my blood boil, and i hate it, because its the same crap i am subjected to every time i open my mouth to object or have a different opinion.

I got that treatment at work too.

I was the subject of some sexually degrading humour made to humiliate me in front of my co-workers just before the christmas break. it completely ruined my day and i left the function early to get to work and get over the comments. When i complained to my manager, he told me that it was because i didn’t like the person who made the comment, that i was offended and that i should just get over it. The man who made the comments hated women, and especially women who had opinions. MY Manager being a guy felt that the comment was me mis-interpretting a joke, however, at the age of 27 as i was then, and in the workplace for 12 years, i know when a joke is a joke, and when its meant to humiliate and denigrate a person.

So i get mad at the world in general and hate most men for a while and move on I guess. Its going to take a long time for men to stop belittling women, and i try and remember that the guys i call my friends are not part of this “men” that i know who do make fun of women and disregard them.

*goes off to burn the bra*

I have an underactive thyroid according to the blood tests that i had last week, and now i have to have a second test to see if i have Hashimoto’s disease which is where antibodies are created, and then attack the thyroid.

the common symptoms for underactive thyroid are:

fatigue

Terrorist warning for Oz

How do you prepare for a potential terrorist strike? How do regular people know what to do? what do we look for? Is this like then end of the world as we know it? as the song says…

I don’t know.

I feel like blaming someone, and ironically its not the terrorists. I want to blame John Howard for putting Australia in jeopardy. The US for not minding its own business. We shouldn’t have to deal with this kind of stuff at all.

Ok

I had noticed when a friend of mine was looking at my blog the other week that they were getting script errors. I couldn’t figure out what the problem was, so today I went through the system and noticed that it had something to do with the commenting system. Out came “view source” pasted into frontpage so I could get accurate line numbers and I found the problem, and actually managed to fix it all by myself without having to run off to my partner asking for help! So if people were put off by the constant errors, sorry, that has all changed now and i have fixed the problem.

and i need to blah about my weekend.

VERY BUSY.

yes that sums it up, had people come over for roleplay, and it was very enjoyable. My half dragon character is developing some serious psychological issues and hangups about not knowing anything about her dragon side, and is starting to feel alienated because she doesn’t belong to anyone. The frustration i feel at not knowing anything about my dragon heritage is beginning to really show in the game side of things, and i caused a few issues with the party when i blessed the dead dragons in an old trap, which was set off again when I went in there, once blessing the dead, all dragons in human form, as was their preference, most of the magical items that we had stumbled upon, and believe me, these were awesome, were destroyed. However i knew as a dragon, that it was the right thing to do. Most of the party, losing their items would disagree with me. I also logged into rpol which is an online roleplay site run by one of my friends (who games with me on saturdays), very interesting website actually.

I also ran over a wood screw on Saturday, puncturing my tyre so i had some assistance in getting to the shops on sunday to get the final ingredients for the dinner for mum, since it was her birthday! Tyre came back yesterday all fixed so now i have wheels again. I also managed to piss off a good friend of mine (another one) accidently tho, yesterday, but He forgave me thank goodness. Never fiddle around with a Firewall when you are netmeeting *grins* BAD juju.

I wonder how much it costs to have your product surveyed with newspoll *lies shamelessly for 20 minutes* And they asked what I did with the junk mail i get in the mailbox. i throw it away! its useless to me. I hate it, i wish junkmail would die. Why can’t terrorists do something useful and bomb people who make junk mail?

I added a new guy to my blog list, just a couple of small things made me smile when I read his blog after random blogging. He recommended a chick he liked to go see Evil Dead 2 - and wanted her thoughts on it, and she didn’t seem that enthused, and then He commented about the top 100 love songs that were chosen as the top 10 for an American video show. I agreed with him, they sucked. Celine and Whitney can bite my ass
anyways I have to bail.

I have things to do regarding a flat tyre and burning another cd for someone.

I’ve been burning a few things off my computer, some software, files and stuff, and today, i spent two hours packing.. or at least the software did, packing a file which was 735 megs, to a smaller file, of 728 megs. Both sizes including the packed version are still too big for me to burn to CD.

…

what a waste of CPU time.

It was serously laggy so the net was slow aswell, I mean, I have a p3 800 Athlon so its not exactly slow.. but far out. 2 hours to turn a file into something 7 megs smaller.

*deletes useless rar archive*

I found out yesterday that the friend who was bitchy at me and made a catty comment about having a life and not on the net all the time (insert misc stuff here), is at least in the first stages of getting to know an IRCop from Austnet. So… in light of what she said in that email, I am reminded of the saying, He who lives in glass houses should not throw stones. In addition, another friend of mine commented that when he asked her about her nasty email, she said she felt like being a bitch. That’s nice.

What gives her the right to be a bitch at someone who was supposedly a close friend? I certainly don’t treat my friends like that. And she didn’t reply to my email asking for an explanation. I don’t know if she reads this. I know if she does she would take offense to it. But seriously. I have been friends with her for a while, we’ve always talked and shared some personal experiences and time together, and its ok for her to be a bitch at me? I don’t think so.

Yes I ranted about this the other night, but it still pisses me off, that I still manage to find people and have them as friends who treat me like crap. Yes i push people away, but usually because i need to fix my issues, and i have had a few recently. However, i have tried to be a good friend.

ahh fuckit.

Friends are humans, and humans suck.

Mum’s birthday dinner seemed to go well. I was extremely organised, catered for too many as it seems and got rid of another 2 bottles of vino. Might take a bottle of wine to a chrissy party next week and that can be another one gone since we have to do a $5.00 gift thing and seriously, i dont like buying $5.00 anythings.

Random blog is great
except when You keep landing on spanish/brazilian/portuguese pages that I can’t read. I am sure these people are great .. however i dont understand them. And WHY do people just put friggen news links on blogs with NO opinion of their own? I want to read what they think. Not what articles they linked to. And this kind of thing annoys me too. If people are going to put wav’s or midi’s on their web page can they PLEASE ADD AN OFF BUTTON THANK YOU!@!!

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