Hey again..

god things have been a nightmare over the last week. On Saurday morning we were robbed when I was at home, working and I didn’t hear them come in, take the DVD player from the lounge or open the door, or hear them steal the bike. But they took my purse and car/housekeys too. So i pulled the EFI fuse from the car so if they came back they couldn’t steal that.

Then Saturday night, we had a fierce electrical storm, a series of them that started at something like 9pm at night when I was sleeping ( i had a midnight shift ) and there was a lightning strike which zapped a power pole, sent a spike up and fried the motherboard. So .. no work for me and next day I had the old PIII-450 running. But still, had issues, so many hardware changes that XP refused to run without a serial number and repair on the hard drive and office xp did the same and i couldn’t FIND any of my XP cd’s anywhere. So a friend lent me his swedish office XP cd and it fixed up office and still ended up being english .. no swedish anywhere.

and for the THIRD disaster because we all know that these things come in threes - on Tuesday night, our business post office box was broken into and vandalised and we lost 3 cheques worth about 5K. Mind you, the theives also broke into all the other business post boxes but still, it had to happen to ME.

I have lost a lot of sleep this week.

Also met with my Manager C. and S., the new customer support supervisor to discuss roles, and what needed working on. It was a very productive meeting. Except to me it seems as tho S. sees me as a bit of a threat. He was very efficient, and taking charge of thigns, and in a way, I was sitting back and letting him create more work for himself. Let’s also note he was doing it with ideas that I was coming up with. Things to do with staff, technical problems. He’d make them his job. He’s going to be doing staff reviews. I don’t know how he thinks he is going to run them, but he was talking about how blunt he was etc. I don’t think he’s right for the job to tell people what to do or what they are doing wrong, because he’s not nice about it.

Prior to him rejoining the company we had a huge run in. Excerpt below ( i still have the log ) when I hadn’t been paid due to a mistake made by the employer and that I didn’t want to work for free, or at least whilst I was unpaid. I still did tho. S. on the other hand went on “strike”

lolly says:
feeling like it and doing it are two completely different things
S says:
but the only differnce was that evryone DID get paid ….but me
lolly says:
now i have stuff to do S. so please let me go do it ok?
S says:
yeah one shows conviction !!
S says:
the other is just talking crap !
lolly says:
S. its time to end this conversation now before anything else is said
S says:
and to think i was only offering to help …..unpaid …..see you at midnight !
S says:
take care
lolly says:
bye S.

So I still have memories of this conversation, which he seemed to refer to alot and feel embarassed by it. That’s his problem. What is my problem is that he appears to see me as some kind of threat. He wanted more and more work. When C. summarised my duties, and then S.’s duties he was like, oh and what do i get to do, like HELLLLLLLOOO You’re doing rosters, staff supervising, tech reports plus a couple of other things. Another suggestion I made about having a support corner introducing support staff to users and C. also suggested a support question of the week. First thing that happened is S. said i’ll do it!!

I was like looking at him thinking “WTF?? MY IDEA” like i had for the others, but luckily C. said “no no, Lori can do this one”. So yay for my team. Now i have my list of things to do and I am so looking forward to it. Things will get done now that I am in charge. Despite the fact i disagree with S. doing staff appraisals, I can include methods on how to conduct them and what objects should be met, so i ultimately have some control over what happens.

My partner and his brother had all sorts of advice for me on how to deal with this guy. I guess they kind of undermined my confidence, You see, far be it for me not to let S. take all the work and do it, if he has the time. I will do what I do and just keep an eye on things from my end I guess. I was thinking of just letting him have enough rope to hang himself. I don’t know what kind of management or HR experience he has, for all i know he has quite a bit. I am sure he doesn’t know my background either.

I miss my friends, I am going to go out tomorrow night hopefully for Sue’s birthday. I might try and get her number off Paul so I can find out the details myself. I want to go out and relax, plus I can show off my nice suede shirt I got last week which is rapidly become my most favourite possession.

Something else bugs me, is that I have to start paying rent etc. and OK its not that bad, but I never had to when I worked before, because my pay was used to pay for other stuff, but Mark and I are now seperating things like bills. I see it in a away as an estrangement and a step away from our relationship. I know we’ve had problems, but this makes me feel alone. I have felt that alot recently. I almost wonder where the love has gone. We barely sleep in the same room at the same time anymore. I would have been alot more upset a few years ago had my purse been stolen then, because it had my train ticket in there of my first date with mark with the date. What does that say?