I am so disappointed in how things are working out with my work. I can’t sleep well thinking about it all. Mainly because W got fired yesterday. I had dreams before C called me about W turning up late for work, after he was given a written warning, and then told after a meeting had closed and we were still at her place looking at stuff for the new client. Those dreams were about C. Everytime she made a decision about home or work, something at her house burnt down. Her kitchen, her BBQ, her patio area (note in RL she doesn’t have one). Then she rang and woke me.
To say she was livid would be an understatement. It was all W’s doing. Now he’s paying the penalty. I felt, and so did C that he had taken advantage of her. So I suggested she give him the flick, and then re-employ him. She didn’t know if that re-employment was going to happen, and I guess at this stage I don’t think it is. I hurt for W. He totally wasted an opportunity. I did point out to C - that S was worse and lied numerous times. She felt I was being unfair. Then she said W had lied too, but S is management and had lied about me, which I think is much worse than giving excuses why they might be late/sleeping in etc.
Something else bugged me, and it didn’t really hit until today. C has all my email for KB forwarded to her email address. This means she can read all the corrospondence I get. Now, it’s not because I have anything to hide, that I care about it. It’s because to me, it’s a sign that she doesn’t trust me or in my abilities. M suggested a term I hadn’t heard of, but after reading about it on the web, I think it’s probably very appropriate.
Micro-management is an example of poor management where the manager over-manages people unnecessarily. The manager may be motivated by concern for details. The effect, however, may be to de-motivate employees and create resentment.
I am beginning to feel that my life is a Dilbert comic series. She corrected me with an email today telling me that I should check everyone’s YahooID’s to see how many others I got wrong. Then there was the email I sent her with minutes of Friday’s meeting. She commented that she couldn’t read it that well due to the “special” characters that were displayed in webmail, like somehow it was my fault they were there. Finally, the email about the report I gave her for December average, which is what she asked for. Instead of saying thanks, she asked that it would have been more useful if i compared it to the previous month. So 3 and a half hours later I have new graph for her. *emails*
My management style also came under fire this week. Apparently my directness when approaching staff when they need things brought to their attention isn’t the appropriate method. I need to make them feel like they are doing me a favour - as opposed to me actually suggesting what they should do directly so they get it right, which ultimately benefits them because they know what to do the next time and their productivity would improve - that means that puts them in a position of power over me so to speak, and my job depends on my staff being trained correctly and getting it right. So we might have one person who is slightly oversenstive.. but I asked others and feedback from them was ok.
So I am on day 2 of my day off, my friend W is unemployed, I have been disappointed by someone else who’s a friend, and I have to go to mum’s for brunch tomorrow, and I feel sad.
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