With all this Drama of the last few days, I realise that my blog life can really be placid and content, because I don’t write about everything that happens in my life here unless it’s so big, I need to utilise the therapy value of writing my angsty thoughts so then I no longer feel angsty.
When I found out on Sunday that X had quit, and that support would be cut in hours I was gutted. The bad timing could not have been worse. M resigned from his company as a directory and secretary, which means he no longer gets a wage, and now with my uncertain job prospects, I felt the cold hand of fear around my stomach squeezing me. I had a mini breakdown and wailed about what was I going to do and got over it. I rang my parents and spoke to dad and now I have a part time job as Office Admin for his work. I REALLY don’t want to get into Office Administration again. I left it all behind because I wanted a change in my career, and I found Customer Support and IT were really things that I enjoyed doing. However, I need to pay the bills, this job will let me do that, It’s for my dad, he’s under alot of stress at the moment and finding it all a bit hard to deal with and I want to ease that burden for him, so that’s what I will do. It helps both of us out, and I get to find out what it’s like working for him.
CEO and BONPA sent some emails during the start of the week which were concerning and made me sit back and think about their plans for the future. Two lines in one particular email made me pay attention: ” I have no desire to become involved in the politics, remembering that I did not ask to be put in this position, but am here purely to to do a job” and “Future changes within the operation however, is dependant on how we all behave and perform over the next couple of months.” - The first line is a lie, she was involved in both attempts to be rid of X, I know this, she knows this, the staff know this. The second line was interesting.. how we behave and perform - these, if applied subjectively by BONPA and CEO as they have done with X will result in job losses.
I needed to get out of this particular job, because I can not face working for BONPA, not knowing what I do, and how she shafted X 18 months ago, and how they did it to her this time and was successful. Such was their plan, they were going to make her pay for her own ticket over to MapleleafLand, and then refuse to re-imburse her the cost when she returned after either A: resigning or B: being terminated. Since that was their plan all along, they also have refused to pay her out her entitlements (3.5 months), and she has a mortage, and three children to feed. Luckily for X, she convinced CEO to pay for her ticket so she was not left out of pocket.
But, it has been those actions which made my decision final. Thank you for your kind words David re: yesterday’s post, it helped with my decision making process.
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