I asked mum tonight during a phone call if I had compromised my ethics and my belief system. I am and always have held myself to be highly principled. I don’t talk behind other people’s backs, I am not hypocritical, but a talk with Ben made me question myself, so I rang mum and asked her.

History
The company I work for when I started had a very nice man as the CEO. He made people happy and want to work for him.
Then with some boardroom skullduggery he was ditched, he wasn’t paid out his investment and he was left out to hang. The man they replaced him with, at first seemed like he was really cool. However, over the last 10 months things have been said and done which has inspired extreme dislike. He bonked BONPA so cheating on his wife, that to me whilst normally none of anyone’s business, has affected my workplace conditions since she is now my new manager. He yelled at support staff regularly, he treated my boss appallingly, with some of the emails he sent her made me blush to read. Then there was the way he abused the technical staff calling them c*nts and lazy f*cks and totally incapable of doing their work. Then he sacked some other people, and didn’t give them their entitlements, or pay out their contracts and so he’s tied the company up in litigation with 3 people.. just a whole pile of things so I don’t have any respect for him, or the woman he has now put in place instead of my Boss.

The industry some of the sites i do support for, aren’t really that ethical, they DoS eachother regularly, some mafia-type organisations have developped some protection rackets happening, and slowly everyone I work with has been trying to remove themselves from the industry and get stuck into working with people who have ethics in business. So should I help this man that I have no respect for? or leave him to self destruct ? My boss informed him of an attempt to steal clients and he ranted and raved at her, for 2 hours however, we didn’t inform him about another attempt - should we have? should we respect the company and the directors who treat staff and ex-staff like dirt? Yes, there’s 2 sides to a story, but i guess there is bullying and intimidation tactics to make staff comply to his rule.

So I asked mum, and she thinks that I didn’t compromise myself. She said, “Loyalty and respect is earnt, and it’s hard to help a man that you don’t respect to earn money.” I guess she has a point, with her working history. But so does Ben.

I had a minor heart attack this morning when i logged on and found that when I went to my blog, www.freakychick.net - i was taking to an error screen.. “this blog does not exist” [insert scream here] - luckily it re-appeared after trying about half a dozen times to get it to come up.

Ok. The drama continues. Something is afoot.

BONPA and CEO logged on last night and queried 2 employees, one we’ll call “Weakestlink” because she is. She’s the one that was gunning for my job a few weeks ago and I had to stomp on her, the other, we’ll call Godiva. She has really long black hair, and breeds horses in her spare time. Both Godiva and Weakestlink were asked how they were, how did they feel about the news about X, if they had been told, when they were told, they asked for the staff roster to be sent over aswell, so we know plans are definitely around. CEO has called for a Teleconference meeting at 5am tomorrow morning. Talk about horrible timing. I am sure that is quite deliberate.

This looks bad for me, my name is not on the Roster anywhere, but I do support work on Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays. I am sure my job will be cut. I will be surplus to requirements - usually first to go are those who are considered expendible. S sent an email to CEO just clarifying what we were doing, I told CEO last night that whilst I knew, I wasn’t sure and was waiting for official notification.

I am going to need alot of strength to get through tomorrow morning, because I am sure that rather than they dispense with our services in person, ie: BONPA come back to Perth, they will do it over the phone. I was a bit of a wreck yesterday and did some crying, and my stomach was flipflopping all over the place, and I don’t know what is going to happen, but I can’t let the staff know how I feel, I am not paid to not know or look like I don’t know what will happen, I have to re-assure them, and keep a big smile on my face whilst being pulled into the abyss.

Well it looks like BONPA has fucked her way up the ladder. My boss has heard rumours that they are replacing her with BONPA, and still support will be decimated. I don’t expect to have a job by the end of the week. Since these people obviously have a personal issue against X, its not too hard to figure out they will remove people who were close to her aswell.

I am angry with X because she hasn’t done her best to protect us from MapleLeaf land. We knew all this would happen, but she still lost her cool, quit, which was what they wanted. She also decided that she shouldn’t meet with CEO to discuss it, which wasn’t what she said the night before. Instead she sent a pissy weak assed email. wah wah. It certainly didn’t say what was needed. So now I have unemployment to look forward to. It’s not all her fault tho, and despite my raging internally about it, there is nothing I can do, and the people I need to be angry at, aren’t around just yet. I will not be quiet when/if I am asked to go

I now have to consider working for dad. Hopefully I can learn what I need to (MYOB), but I need to earn what I was making before. M is not working at the moment so of course there is reliance on my income. I don’t need this stress on me. I sit here and feel sick with fear about the unknown, I don’t think things have been so bad for me job wise since 1997. That’s a long long time.

On the plus side, HiFi (aka Ben) dropped into my channel and did a great job of making me smile and feel alot better, and I am really glad he was there.

I have also been asked to explain what BONPA means. It means, Bonk Only, No Public Appearances.

I also banned someone from my channel for their involvement in ozirc. It’s a copy cat network, regardless of what they say, they went around behind my back and invited a hell of alot of people who are my friends to the network, leaving me out because I am Austnet staff - sure it might not be spamming, but when its a copycat network, it’s spamming in my books. I wouldn’t care if it was another network, but when it uses the same/similar services (copyright) + austhex (which is public domain) and MY friend was a major contributor to both. Anyways.. enough of that.

updates about BONPA and CEO as I get them.

It finally has bubbled to the surface, seething emotions, boiling away in the back of my mind as I sit, after submitting my resume to Seek.com.au in the vain hope of finding work in the next couple of weeks to replace the job that suddenly has become very very unstable.

X asked Y to call me, to pass on a message to call X in MapleLeafLand and so I did, she told me a story about the big meeting she and everyone else in the company went to. Everyone did their presentations and she did not get to do hers. Instead FW (short for f**kwit sent her one and only vocal ally to a meeting with techies, and thus the inquisition began. With BONPA* and the CEO sitting together on one side of the room, they questioned X about her ability to do the job, made claims that her team were sending emails to accounts which could be dealt with by support, that they didn’t really know what support did, and was there a need for support to actually be manned 24/7.

There we had it. The reason for the ambush. Support was to be cut from 24/7 down to 12/7. X tried to discuss it rationally, but didn’t have access to the data to answer the questions, she was accused of not providing stats, but she hadd, she was accused of not being professional, of not being mature enough to deal with her job and the current conversation blah blah blah blah blah.. in the end she resigned. She told CEO to shove his job up his ass. Go X.

What happened next? well, lots of crying, other Managers running up to her room periodically to see how she was going, including BONPA, and X remembering some time during that night saying after the go stick your job up your ass comment, that she hoped he gets what he deserves. Seems like he might do that now. CEO and BONPA were seen on the side of a road, so, some of the managers who were being driven around the city and recognising his car decided to pull over and beep and say “HI”. In the middle of all the hand waving, and smiling, which continued when he finally stopped molesting his wife in the front seat, apparently almost in the act of copulation, they all had the opportunity to see who was in the seat, and their waving and enthusiasm took a hit, as they saw BONPA and not CEO’s wife in the car adjusting herself. SCANDALOUS!

God knows what the gossip is going to be like now. However, X is jobless, her email account is disabled, her bot access disabled, a severance pay will be discussed in the morning, and I guess she’ll be able to clear the decks before leaving the land of the Mapleleaf and winging it back home.

I don’t know what will happen to support here. We may lose our jobs and they might pull support from oz. In any case, I have advised some people already to start looking for other work, and I finish perfecting my resume and contemplate my future, which in the short term, is now looking very grim.

Other news

I have an E-stalker! Called Ben, he didn’t like my old tagboard colour scheme (no surprise) since it matched the old look of the site. I changed it, and then purchased a licence for tagboard for a year. I am adding him to the WA blog sites i have listed so he feels like he is in exalted company (ie:with David). All the moons must have been aligned however, as Ben found me on IRC yesterday and proceeded to harrass me! then some time later, David logged on! So the three of us gossipped for a while, which was pretty cool. However I have found out they are closet fascists (vote for the OTHER side) and after much soul searching have decided to embrace the difference because they’re such nice guys.

From the beginning, I have been fascinated by Mary Donaldson, who is going to be marrying the love of her life tonight. When I first saw on the web, news that an australian woman was dating a crown prince, my attention was instantly drawn to her. Over the last 18 months, I have read virtually everything I could find, and watched TV documentaries, and 60 minutes reports about the two, and how they met.

The documentary shown late at night *grr @ channel 7* really made an impression on me. She was articulate and intelligent, a no-nonsense type of girl, and she believed what I believed in. That marriage is forever. She’s only 2 years older than me, but I understood her thinking. I too have parents who are still married, which for people around my age is unusual, also we’re both in our 30’s an unmarried. Why wait so long? Because as she said, she was waiting for the one.

There are nay-sayers out there, and I have read a spiteful article today from one of them, they should step back a moment. She is one of us. She gives hope to those of us who haven’t settled down, who have grown to bitter and cynical to realise that love really is a positive force in our lives, and rather let herself be frightened about the consequences of being in love with a prince, she’s taken a step forward into the unknown, leaving her native country behind, her friends, and moving into a new world. A world with a completely different culture, new language, new rules, she has lost most of her privacy, the whole world knows she’s fertile, and that her main purpose is to reproduce an heir to the Danish throneForget the fact she is going to be moving into a big Castle and have servants for a minute if that’s possible.

Mary however, knowing this, goes into this world with the man who loves her most in the world, who will be there for her, and he’s not afraid anyone knowing that he loves her. How many women can say that? She should be treated like a beacon of hope to the rest of us who are too scared to step forward and make that committment in life, in love. Put away the cynicism, put on your biggest smile and step forward, we need to shake off the shackles of the cynical label of X Generation and start living.

I think this article below says everything I could ever say about this budget.

I don’t earn over 52K a year, I would like to, I don’t have children, not sure if i would like to, but being paid $3000 for a child is not enough incentive for me to utilise my ovaries for the good of the country.

There is absolutely nothing in this budget, which gives me any incentive AT ALL, to vote Liberal. Not that I would anyways, I would have to be tied up, beaten and have my eyes put out with hot pokers before I would consider voting for the Fascists currently in Government.

Budget pits families against childless
By Sue Dunlevy
May 13, 2004

ONE in two Australians will get no increase in their weekly income from a Federal Budget that pits families with kids against the childless. Contrast … the Budget fortunes of young families and young singles are vastly different.

Ten million Australians will miss out on both the tax cuts and the family benefit increases, an analysis by University of New South Wales tax expert Associate Professor Neil Warren shows.

Three out of four, or seven million of the nation’s nine million taxpayers, will miss out on the tax cuts, which go only to the 2.3 million taxpayers earning more than $52,000 a year, he said.

Around six million Australians will miss out on the family tax benefit increases because they are single or have no dependent children.

The families with children who benefit most from the Budget represent less than half all families (48 per cent) and are declining as a proportion of all families. The Australian Bureau of Statistics says the number of families with dependent children fell by 4200 between June 2002 and June 2003 - or from 49.3 per cent of families to 48 per cent.

Professor Warren yesterday described the Budget strategy as risky and “a bit divisive”. Already single people were complaining to talkback radio that they had been left out, he said.

The Opposition yesterday grabbed the political opportunity to champion those who missed out, borrowing the Sir Robert Menzies tag “the forgotten people”. “Why does the Budget fail to provide tax relief for the four out of five earning less than $52,000 a year - sales reps, the shop assistants, the technicians, the childcare workers, the teachers, the backbone of the Australian economy?” Mr Latham asked Prime Minister John Howard in Parliament.

Treasurer Peter Costello defended his decision to concentrate his $15 billion spending spree on two groups - families with children and those earning more than $52,000. He said lower income earners had been rewarded when the Government introduced the GST in 2000 and cut the bottom tax rates.

Mr Howard boasted that it was “the most family-friendly Budget this country has ever seen”. “It is also a Budget that says to the people who want to better themselves, who are prepared to work harder, to do a bit of overtime, to strive to improve themselves: ‘We are no longer going to clobber you with a tax rate of 42 cents in the dollar when you hit $52,000′,” he told Parliament.

Mothers welcomed the budget, which delivered $3000 maternity pay, 30,000 new after-school care places and two $600 per child family tax benefit increases. Motherinc spokeswoman Claudia Keech said: “At last we’ve got a government showing a complete awareness of the needs of families.”

But Lone Fathers Association spokesman Barry Williams said divorced dads would be “slaughtered” by the Budget because they didn’t have custody of their children and would miss out on tax cuts.

The Daily Telegraph

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