*bounce*
I got through another week of work, and I guess I did OK. It’s scary now having to realise that I’ll be reviewed weekly and have my phone calls listened to and I’ll stress about it all. I just don’t want my team leader or the ATL to listen to me whilst sitting next to me. I suffer from performance anxiety.
I didn’t get to go out last night with friends, or talk much to my online ones. I wanted to talk about work and home issues and wasn’t able to. Hopefully I’ll be able to talk tonight to some of my friends if they don’t go out anywhere expensive, otherwise it will be venting to others on sunday maybe. Funny, due to work taking up most of my time I just don’t get to talk to anyone as much anymore - real life and online friends, I miss talking to them and when my weekend rolls around, I will log on to catch up with people now, and be more interested in talking etc than during the week since usually I am tired and just wanna sleep.
After sending an email to a friend last night, he had promised to log on so we could MSN last night and talk, and it didn’t happen, he replied back to a mailing list. I found out this morning when I logged on this morning. So - how bad does it look for me? Well *shrug* I guess I can be a little philosophical on one hand, so … now the mailing list knows we talk (if they didn’t know before, they do now. So instead of talking to the email happy friend, I chatted to another friend on IRC instead 
Hopefully things work out for her.
However I am making new friends with the people I work with. A few things have irritated me with the team that I am now with, some of them are giggling girties and all they do is laugh and chat when they’re at meetings and stuff - or read magazines when waiting for calls. Thankfully that’s no longer going to be an issue at least with the magazine reading since our Team Leader gave us a list of expectations she’d like us to meet when we had our first team meeting yesterday.
When I went to the pub, and talked with a couple of the team I work with - it’s interesting to see that they really do see alot of things along the same line as I do when it comes to how to work professionally. I felt alot more comfortable about working with them and knowing I can talk to them about quite a few issues when I am bugged about it and they will see where I am coming from. Just need to sit on my hands and wait out the girly politics .. more later have to go shopping and stuff