It’s freezing. It’s too cold for this, so I am wrapped up in bed watching TV with the laptop keeping me company. M is busy working, and I watch the men’s marathon and wonder that perhaps it should have been run first and not the women’s marathon last week, apparently it’s 10 degrees C cooler. I really feel bad for the Brazilian dude, attacked 5kms from the finish line by a rogue greek protester. He finished the Marathon in 3rd place instead of 1st. Who knows if he might have finished 1st if it hadn’t been for that moron leaping out of trees and pushing him into the crowd.

I had a pretty heavy political discussion tonight with a couple of people and found myself getting really annoyed. I have to avoid these discussions because it’s obvious nothing we say is going to have an impact on eachother. They are going to vote for Howard, and I am not. So I turned to the marathon to save me from frustration. Watching those guys run pointlessly for a silly bit of metal makes me wonder why.

I went for a walk today in Kings Park with friends, which was great, and spent time listening to them talking about dogs, buying houses (something i am yet to do) and concentrating on my walking. I went along that new treetop walk, and I think it’s pretty awesome. Not as scary as the one down south near Walpole. I dropped in and visited the parent’s on the way home and watched a couple of movies with dad and had a good chat. You should see the new computer case dad has.. talk about drool factor - he’s building this new u-beaut machine with 3 huge fans that run quietly, it’s got perspex for part of the case to show off the fans and lil blue and red led lights to make it glow in the dark. He’s going to build the perfect system apparently. Some of the features though are great. I’ll get him to email me photo’s of the completed box when it’s done.

I started up a new blog for an experiment - a techno blog I guess. Since I am now working in mobile phones, I thought I’d do a mobile phone geek blog, as an experiment - and talk about mobile phones in layman’s terms - so regular people can understand what I am talking about.. so I can understand what I am talking about. So I’ll link it here and over on the other side under the other perth blogs and you can all laugh at me later.

Classic - I now have fights on my blog.

I’ll just explain some things to people who read this blog. I usually leave names out of my entries to preserve a person’s privacy. My thoughts are my own, and so that I don’t draw attention to others, so they wil be ID’d I never actually use names- however what if i make all of this up? and that these people are figments of my imagination!!?. I haven’t this time - they’re all real - sometimes a little .. too real if you know what I mean.

I understand I may have failed my duty as a friend to some people, said some things that perhaps should not have been said - but I won’t take them back - they are out there in the world. However, that does not invalidate the anger I felt when I had to listen to a close friend in alot of pain because of another friend. I dare anyone who isn’t a true friend not to get angry when they see someone they care about hurt. I can’t fix her, I can’t erase the pain, I regret telling her that I thought he was a nice guy and she should go along and enjoy the moment. Who wouldn’t think that it was wonderful to see two people she cared about get together?

So what’s my lesson..

Well as one person said to me - and no it wasn’t raina - she was glad that someone told her the truth. The silence from everyone else must have been deafening. Problem with gossip is that it’s done behind the back, in whispers and looks - and on IRC its worse. I probably participated in it when I shouldn’t have - but *shrug* that’s human nature and no one is perfect. Next time I’ll just keep my mouth shut and say nothing, and just freeze the offending assholes out of my life

Well this is going to be a long post with different subjects. Firstly I need to vent about my car which broke down this morning in possibly some of the most hostile weather I have seen. My bin was blown about 30 metres down the road this morning during the nasty storm. I put petrol in the car, ($1.06 per litre - thank you George and John) went to start it and it didn’t fire up. So I woke up some poor guy whom had given me his business card for work to contact, and got the Ops desk. However I was not late for work as luck would have it. My car apparently only had a flat battery. Talk about embarrassed, I could have solved it myself instead of getting it towed to my dad’s work and it working the first time they tried to fix it. I felt like such a girl.

Issues

And the truth shall set you free.

I could despise myself for getting involved as a friend in another’s well being after a relationship went pearshaped. It was a relationship, no matter what is said in whispers. I guess that is why I am angry. If you want a friend who will stick by you thick or thin, then look me up. If you however, do something that hurts another of my friends, and I am aware of the truth, then never expect me to not say something in the effort of being polite. He fucked up. He’s been caught. Other’s think hey Lori is being juvenile, but as I said today, when have any of you ever seen me this angry before? Surely they would have brains.. think - hey lori is really down on X person, what is the truth here? What he’s saying? Because Lori is screaming from the heaven’s that he is a liar. Men suck - well not all men, but right now, the american ones from Atlanta do. btw - I am not backstabbing anyone. If anyone asks me questions, if it is in within my ability to answer it I will answer it truthfully.

Funny thing is I was attacked by someone else who actually wasn’t around for the longest time and crept onto the scene and became nasty. I was surprised, more than a little shocked, and perhaps Jenny and Ben were right about him all that time ago. But now, I don’t want talk to some of these friends anymore. I’ve not slept for a few weeks very well. I hate the crap.

Truth Overboard

Can any of you people who support the liberal govt in power actually tell me, that it’s ok for John Howard to have won an election based on a lie? That people didn’t throw their kids over the side of the boat to blackmail the navy? What about all those ex politicians, and diplomats and liberal stalwarts who came out stating Howard is bringing the Liberal Party into disrepute. Please tell me, and leave the whole - Mark Latham is a dickhead chat and how crap he is - please tell me in logical reasons WHY John H is a better man, a better prime minister than Mark Latham could be.

After listening to Alexander Downer tonight on Lateline, say with a straight face, that Latham was smearing John Howard’s good name, and ignore the fact that no less than 2 months ago, we heard all about Latham’s supposed domestic private problems paraded around on the National media for everyone to read and see - how is that any different? Since the man behind the smear campaign was apparently a J.H supporter. I don’t understand how they are possibly good for the country.

I think it is time to come out and let everyone know that I support the only alternative there is right now to the liberal party, regardless of how I might feel about some of labors policies or how they compromised on issues I find dear to my heart. The fact is, we need to save Australia from the Liberals. The only alternative is Labor - because there is no one else, and it must be done.

Public transport..

Can bite my ass. I am driving to work tomorrow. Fuck the bus.

Has anyone watched this movie?

If you haven’t and you don’t mind listening to Mandarin, and reading subtitles, then people need to watch it. This movie, much like Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon is something very special. It’s based on an old legend I think from China when it was split into many kingdoms. A king conquers other Kingdoms to unite China as one nation, and to do so, he must kill many people. Assassins are sent forth to kill him, but in the end, only one is successful in getting close enough to the Emporer to kill him. The story is in the tale that of how assassin got to the palace, and his decision once he got there.

I think it’s a spiritual movie, and must be watched with an open mind. I suggest you don’t listen to the movie dubbed in english - you really don’t get to hear the beauty of the language and the emotions conveyed, you don’t need to understand the language to appreciate the message. This is why I say, you should read the subtitles, and listen to the message.

Read about it here for a quick summary.

I have been kinda slack this week. I haven’t felt motivated to blog, I have spent alot of energy working and getting home, and doing other stuff and not enough brain time to relax. I have figured out what adherence time is, and why my numbers are going up so much so now I have to modify my behaviour work wise and use not-ready alot more than busy. (if you use a pabx phone system in a call centre you’d know all about this)

I am shrinking more which I am happy about, walked about 15kms i think this week, I started walking in the mornings now aswell. I however need to do upper body exercises since the lower bits are shrinking faster than the upper bits! In anycase, it’s all good. I have some new clothes on layby, so it’s all good.

Mostly everything was improving with M and I, but tonight, I tried calling so he could let me in and he couldn’t “hear” it, which shits me, and then when i said something he got angry and defensive about it. Well if we can fix the problems with the gate then we won’t have nasty little fights now will we! I guess i have to wait for the gate issues to be fixed!! Bah - domestic bliss my ASS. Anyways it will all pass.

Australian Idol sucked ass tonight. Seriously - what a lame bunch of singers.

I was reading my favourite aussie news website today (news.com.au) and whilst looking at the entertainment pages, came across a reference to Stefan Dennis. Who’s that? everyone asks.. He’s a dude who played a Robinson from the 1980s in Neighbours. Here is a pic of him. And as we can see, that picture’s about 10 yrs old. Well I thought.. who is he.. so I went and looked him up on Google and found his livejournal. The description he put in his Biography has made me laugh, and I am thinking that he is probably still single.

Hello.

My ambitions are to play Doctor Who when the BBC return the show to the nation’s screens, and to have sex with every attractive lady on the planet.

Well.. there we go. People like him walk the earth, and the few journal entries he made were very scary, and no one added him as a friend - seems like they have good taste or, it’s a very amusing hoax.