You’re so vain.. i bet you think this post is about you…
Well another week over thank god and I have got through it relatively unscathed.
The air quality is crap however due to the horrendous fires that have surrounded the city giving us the most pollution ever recorded. Right now even natives from los angeles would have a problem breathing in our city. I guess we have experienced what sydneysiders have had for the last couple of years with all their bushfires, and WA govt. practices in prescribed burning to keep the fire risk low, so yes, this was pretty bad. On Friday on the way to work it felt like I was walking in water, I couldn’t get enough air in my lungs to breathe and i don’t have asthma. I feel bad for the people who do!
I went out for the first time in ages with a friend, MsD, last night and was her “handbag” as she went looking for a MsX she knows through email. Much to my amusement, we see this chick who matches the general description of the one she is looking for, and she’s very hot looking I guess. MsD was standing there saying to me “I dont know if I should!” I am doing the dutiful thing and murmuring words of encouragement
Eventually my friend gets the courage to go ask her, and doh! it’s not her! So we toddle off to talk to another friend, MsC, and low and behold.. MsX, the girl that that MsD was looking for, is here with MsC! what are the odds! So after some giggling we introduces ourselves to everyone, and then I am told for the next hour by MsC that lesbians play mind games and don’t date one. “ok i’ll keep that in mind!” i say and sip my lemon lime and bitters with gusto.
Much dancing was done and I should point out that it was a great night to be out, music and stuff, and for a change - not alot of smoke in the air so it didn’t feel like I was breathing fire, nice breeze and warm night. MsC however was having her own crises with the object of her unrequited lust/love/like flirting like mad with some other chicks and a guy. It was painful to watch, and I liken it to watching a car crash in slow motion.
Work has been busy lately - which is good because it means my calltimes are coming down. Stops the nagging kaiser from busting my ass when I have call times of 10 mins per call. Might be due to the fact I am busy helping people! but what the heck.. he’s only doing it because if his team doesn’t meet their targets, he doesn’t get his bonus next quarter. So keeping this in mind, my team is shrinking. Four people have been ‘asked’ to resign or sacked, in the last 4 weeks. I am thinking of talking to Kaiser on monday and saying “so.. i wanna swap teams, seems like everyone in this one is getting the boot” and seeing what he does 
He’s very straight laced so I think I can get him on this one 
I could bitch about this chick at work, but it’s a waste of energy. *sigh* but she talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks. Get the idea? I had to sit next to her on Wednesday, and I wanted to kill her. thankfully we were so busy on Friday that there was no time to talk, just work.
I think I’ve come through the last irc crisis without too many bruises and scratches. I am thankful for that. I was however pretty gutted when I found out F (friend) was no longer my friend due to something I may have said to another person ..blahblah.. I guess he doesn’t know the full story, and I am not inclined to tell him. We’re kind of friends again, but alot of damage has been done. I have to remember it’s IRC - I can walk away from it and live my life, it doesn’t rule my life. It’s nice to see that we’re able to get on with the business of helping now that the bullshit has been dealt with. Whatever i have been called over the last few days/weeks - powerhungry would be the last thing that i should be called. I didn’t actually get anything out of it. I’m still the same level I was before, I still help as I did before - so my world hasn’t changed in the slightest, except there’s less stress. Having the full time job away from the home rather than working from home is a godsend 
I have decided that over the last few weeks, I needed more guidance on how I live. I try and practice a little form of Zen in my life. I only worry about something that directly effects me at the time. Due to the shit with M, and the need to re-evaluate things, I have set some goals i need to achieve - and try to learn how to relax. I have purchased a book called “Idiot’s guide to Zen living” So now I learn about the 8 paths, 4 truths etc, and I’ll let you know if I reach the state of nirhvana.