When I first discovered movies on commercial television, the first one I remember seeing that has remained in my mind, thought my childhood was Ladro di Bagdad, or The Thief of Bagdad. The thief was on a quest to rescue a princess, and the only way he could do it, was to find a blue rose.   To me, a Blue Rose symbolises a quest of hope, love and completion.  It’s what I am looking for when I choose the right one for me, that’s going to remind me of my quest, and get it tattoo’d onto my wrist.

Well.. my blogbuddy Yamilla who has finished her PhD tagged me.

First town you ever lived in: Port Hedland, was born there…

First album owned: That I purchased.. Kate Bush - Cloudbusting

First pub gig seen: Flat Stanley, At plaistowes in West Perth, which is now closed.

First Celebrity Crush: Tom Cruise.. What was I thinking!!!

First Film you remember seeing: Star Wars, the now 4th episode. I thought Darth Vader was sad.

First time you drank alcohol: Dad gave me a beer when I was 4, but out in public..? 1991, Rottnest Island, just turned 18 and at University Volleyball camp.

First paying job: Dial a DinoS - bought out by Pizza hut.

First Kiss: When I was 12, by a boy named Zeth.. cute, blonde, blue eyes.. *sigh*

I tag..Steph and David and Greg!

.Over the last couple of weeks I have spent too much money, worked too hard, caught a cold, and got over the cold, looked after one of my mate’s teams, and been driven insane by my TL, who likes ordering me around like at the moment I am still her lackey. I finally told my team manager (her team manager) how I felt about it. How restricted I feel, that I need to behave, that I don’t understand her behaviour as it blows hot and cold. Sure I am still her team member and only doing relief work, but I am doing TL work, not consultant work at the moment.

OK that rant is over, I am not the only one who feels that way, a few other people do, and they have spoke out. something will be done eventually. I did say that I could still work with her, just needed to ensure that she needed to think before she opens her mouth about things.

On a more amusing note, someone rang a pizza company and dropped the call into the call centre. She was on it straight away, testing phones etc, she should have been home by now. I was like.. “go home!!” and she cruises over to the desk and tells me what happened, and that she thought it was one of two people, one them being someone in my team, who I happen to know well since we both went through training together and I was like.. “no it’s not him, he was doing stuff for me to do with organising coaching for his team” She backed off, but still I think, thinks it was him. Bleh

My sister is moving near me! that’s going to be interesting. Her X is still stalking her. Asshat that he is. I may talk about that next time.

I have come to the realisation that I see my blog as a friend. A friend that I haven’t visited for a few weeks, and the longer I go not talking to my friend, the worse I feel, and guilty, so then I then don’t go visit that friend, because I feel so guilty and so the time between visits stretches longer and longer.

I visit the blog with a post and an apology. I didn’t mean to neglect you, leave our friendship dry.. Just got so busy with work, being sick with a cold, and tired when I get home at night, I just don’t have the energy to talk to you sometimes. Stuff has happened at work, which has been interesting, and I will talk about it in the next post, just want to get this confession and apology over and done with.

Last night I went to dinner with friends and we had some readings done. Cards n stuff. Was a bit creepy as one woman sat down and said “someone is going to be travelling very soon” and looked at me then everyone else was like.. woah.. yes it’s her. I never have met this woman so it was a bit shocking. So I asked her a question, in my head, and the answer of course came out positive. She was using a deck of cards that had no negatives.

The second reader, was a man and I didn’t like him. He is some kind of warlock dude. Used Egyptian cards and tried to fish for information from me when he said that I was splitting my energy in two ways. Duh.. who doesn’t have to make a decision these days.

3rd lady was good. Very good. But again the stuff she said, anyone could have said it.

Oh oh one more thing.  My realestate agent’s are a little .. stupid.

I started out paying $140 per week for my flat when i rented in April 2005, then after 6 months they told me they were raising the rent to $145 per week. OK fine. I have been paying $145 since Dec 05.
so they sent me the new lease to sign for 2006/2007, Bwahahaha stupid dolts.  They sent me a NEW agreement, which is natural, and it’s set for $140 per week AGAIN, and they can’t put the rent up for the first 6 months of the lease. Bwahaha. Love it. Looks like my rent is reduced. Awesome. What’s the bet when I stop paying $290 per fortnight down to $280.00 that they send me a letter telling me I am not paying the correct rent. I am tempted to ring them and say.. Hi you made a mistake.. but then, would they appreciate my honesty? I think not!

I have had an odd day today. We will start off with talking a little about work. My TL is back from her annual leave. We had to nominate members of our teams to go into a prize draw for some stuff - like, well done, you did great work, here’s a mobile phone etc. I am not a team leader, i am a pretender, so still part of her team, and I looked after them well over the last 3 weeks. She turned around tonight and said.. “Oh yeah, I didn’t nominate you to go into the prize draw since you’re not really doing anything in the team at the moment… ”

I didn’t react, I just nodded and mumbled OK, and then sent off an email to the TL running the draw with my 3 nominations for the team I am looking after at the moment. Internally I felt like I wanted to cry. I interpet that as being angry, because I felt rage. Why tell me that you did not nominate me to go into a prize draw for working your ass off for the last 4 fucking months like the rest of the people in the call centre just because I am not FULLTIME on the phones at the moment. No instead I work my ass off looking after your team when you go on holidays, get their stats down and improve them so YOU end up looking good.

WHY tell me? Why not just say nothing so I don’t know, and therefore can’t feel angry, or disappointed, or feel that in some way you are trying to shove my nose in the ground because you are threatened by me. Why re-inforce your power over me? I don’t want to be you, I am happy in my own world.

What this tells me is that I now am one of those people who have fallen between the cracks. I dont qualify for team leader incentive, because I am not a team leader, I don’t qualify for the consultant incentive, because I am not a fulltime consultant, I am doing temporary team leader work. It tells me that you don’t reward people for good work, just mediocre work, that you don’t consider me valuable. It’s just aswell I know I am good at what I do, and that other’s have noticed that I am good at it too, because your opinion of me means jackshit.
Yes, I will tell you what I think, but later, When you are no longer my supervisor and have the ability to affect my job. You know the irony of this? I let you copy my answers to a quiz for a competition that was on today, and I put in both entries into the entry box, and you won a prize.

I have noticed since I purchased my flight to the UK that I have avoided looking at the balance of my credit card. I know that I am spending money, I know when I see the electronic receipt pop up in my email telling me that .

You have purchased return flights to Copenhagen

You have purchased a night in an orange box

You have purchased travel insurance, good luck

I just.. can’t bear to see what my credit card balance is right now.. I need payday to make me feel better.

Speaking of orange boxes, A friend pointed out a website to me, I was looking for accomodation in London for one night, and he suggested easyhotel.com. I checked it out, and found that they have a no frills hotel in the centre of London. “Awesome” I thought to myself and clicked through.For £38,00 I get a small 7 sqm  room, with a moulded bathroom/toilet ensuite (one big piece of plastic) and a double bed, and no windows.
Think of one of those storage rooms you rent in those places way out of the city for those things you never use again. Cool concept.

::TheEnforcer:: i just broke up with my gal friend ive been drinking since i broke up with her
::Mr_aslpls::     your like a girl, YOU do the breakup, then you get depressed about it?? wtf
::Mr_aslpls::     so whyd u break up with her man??
::TheEnforcer:: coz i had to, it was going no where, i feel so stupid, i neeed a drink
::mikael^cott:: you sohuld of just enjoyed a good thing while u had it
::TheEnforcer:: good, i loved her but she didnt love me so its really hard
::Mr_aslpls::     man is she atleast trying to chase u now?
::TheEnforcer:: no, i sent her an email saying its over
::mikael^cott:: lol in email?
::Mr_aslpls::     lol most impersonal way of comunication
::TheEnforcer:: i no, it had to be done tho
::Mr_aslpls::     so what was her reaction when u broke it off? i woulda replied with omfgdiaf for doing it via email
::TheEnforcer:: no she doensnt no yet
::lolly::             send a txt msg, better still send her a noteop
::Mr_aslpls::     ROFL
::mikael^cott:: lmao
::Mr_aslpls::     LOL noteop
::TheEnforcer:: its not fucking funny ok mate
::Mr_aslpls::     dude
::mikael^cott:: dude it is hillarious
::mikael^cott:: like.. your suffering brings me gr8 joy your one stupid fucker for writing that email
::lolly::            i can see her now, forwarding that email to her friends and your friends that is something
i would hold on to and embarrass the hell out of you.  

This is exchange was in a channel I sit in, on IRC. normally I don’t pay attention to the whiney rants of drunken men but I paid attention when I saw one stupid m0f0 getting upset because he dumped his girlfriend by email.

Rules for dumping people in the electronic age:

1. NEVER dump by email, it can be used against you.
2. NEVER dump by text message
3. NEVER dump by any electronic medium where it is recorded and in writing.
4. Don’t be lame, come onto some chat program like IRC and expect people to give you sympathy when you have been so stupid and cowardly in the first place.

Grow some balls, and dump the biatch or bastard face to face.