No soup for me.
I have had an odd day today. We will start off with talking a little about work. My TL is back from her annual leave. We had to nominate members of our teams to go into a prize draw for some stuff - like, well done, you did great work, here’s a mobile phone etc. I am not a team leader, i am a pretender, so still part of her team, and I looked after them well over the last 3 weeks. She turned around tonight and said.. “Oh yeah, I didn’t nominate you to go into the prize draw since you’re not really doing anything in the team at the moment… ”
I didn’t react, I just nodded and mumbled OK, and then sent off an email to the TL running the draw with my 3 nominations for the team I am looking after at the moment. Internally I felt like I wanted to cry. I interpet that as being angry, because I felt rage. Why tell me that you did not nominate me to go into a prize draw for working your ass off for the last 4 fucking months like the rest of the people in the call centre just because I am not FULLTIME on the phones at the moment. No instead I work my ass off looking after your team when you go on holidays, get their stats down and improve them so YOU end up looking good.
WHY tell me? Why not just say nothing so I don’t know, and therefore can’t feel angry, or disappointed, or feel that in some way you are trying to shove my nose in the ground because you are threatened by me. Why re-inforce your power over me? I don’t want to be you, I am happy in my own world.
What this tells me is that I now am one of those people who have fallen between the cracks. I dont qualify for team leader incentive, because I am not a team leader, I don’t qualify for the consultant incentive, because I am not a fulltime consultant, I am doing temporary team leader work. It tells me that you don’t reward people for good work, just mediocre work, that you don’t consider me valuable. It’s just aswell I know I am good at what I do, and that other’s have noticed that I am good at it too, because your opinion of me means jackshit.
Yes, I will tell you what I think, but later, When you are no longer my supervisor and have the ability to affect my job. You know the irony of this? I let you copy my answers to a quiz for a competition that was on today, and I put in both entries into the entry box, and you won a prize.
April 13th, 2006 at 6:26 pm
Well that blows on so many levels of suckage but it doesn’t sound unlike my workplace where good and consistant work goes unnoticed and the poor work bitched about but nothing done about, except in my team where i won’t tolerate it.