I am sliding back into nothingness again!

I feel like gossiping about work, but there just really is not that much to talk about.

I was asked to go for the “you rock” lunch for work, sat near the General Manager, asked questions about the share price.. and then later on one of the other Snr Managers sees me in the lunch room, I am on MSN to MM, and suggests that I mention the share price drop to the CEO of the company I work for.. sure.. I like to make those career ending statements. I think I will find myself too busy to attend that particular event, the last time there was one, someone in IT got horribly drunk and said a few things that just should be kept between him and his manager.

Everyone is looking at me at work since I failed to get that position, and I know they are thinking one of 2 things. “Poor lori” or “sucked in bitch” There are schools of thought that I was unlucky, or I must have been really crap, or I pissed off the management team and why would they promote someone who was a lower level than me.. So, I keep going to work and taking calls whilst ppl comment that I have been demoted, when no such thing has happened, but still the gossip flies. Awesome, that can go with the one about how I am no longer a lesbian.

rolls eyes

I have also discovered dealsdirect.com.au, I should ensure that Hammy goes and looks at it. There is alot of cheap stuff, like vacuum cleaners, of which I am about to buy one.  There is other stuff, golf clubs, bikes, soap, candles, refurbished laptops, mp3 players and other miscellaneous shit. Excellent really for those trashy purchases!

Thats about it for now I think.. Weekend planned and I find out when MM is booking his tickets to come over soon!! Awesome

I was talking to MM tonight, not sure what he is doing, but he says to me..

“press Windows key + U”

So I press it. Somehow I turn the “narrator” on..

I thought of Kid A. Very wrong for my computer.. Try it..

Someone pasted the vid below in a channel that I sit in, on IRC.

I know a bot

Being a geek, and having bots looking after our channels, I was amused to listen to it, and find was in swedish and that I recognised the language. After spending that much time listening to it in Sweden, I understoon like 5 phrases.

The tune is catchy, if you are an IRC geek you will appreciate it It also provides a bit of a glimps into the IRC psyche.. Even after the bot reveals itself.. the geek still says.. “Anna is a bot” Very deep.. for IRC geeks and n3rds.

bloody wordpress ate my post.

well it wasn’t that great anyways.

to summarise, i had a great day.

I drank and ate pizza and felt sorry for myself. In any case, it turned out OK today.
I feel much better today and went out with a slight hangover to eat with friends. We bitched about why it was done, and I got home, and am over it. Tomorrow is a new day. Back at work with a smile, and a request to change my shifts to weekends so I can earn more money and pay off my travel debt.

Wish I wasn’t here though.

I did not get the job I applied for.

Apparently when the next TL position comes up, that will probably be offered to me. A consolation prize I guess. I am trying not to feel bitter and twisted, but I guess you could say I am bitterly disappointed.

Update on current life at the moment.. I had a job interview for a TL role at work, I will find out tomorrow (this morning) how I went.
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MM is going to come and visit me in October I think, he has about 2/3rds of the $$ needed for his tickets. I am happy and excited. I miss our afternoon walks.

I realised that Dad’s friend was cracking on to me in a big way, like.. I figured out part of it when I was sitting out on MM’s balcony and drying my hair, with his comment late on the second night I was at his house “oh i was rather hoping you would show me around”. This is after he had made a big deal about the Eros fountain in london, which I had never heard of. Apparently young people go there hoping to find out their true loves, to which I scorned the whole idea of people going to a fountain like that in the middle of London to look for love. Then there was the pity comments, about his life and stuff, how lonely he was etc. Finally the comment about how much money he has saved. Let’s not forget the sitting next to me and his feet stretching out to touch my feet when we were on the tube. So.. he tried the romance tricks, the money one.. and the pity party tricks, to which I was totally oblivious because 1: I wasn’t attracted to a 45+ yr old man with a massive chip on his shoulder, whinged and moaned like Moaning Myrtle from Harry Potter, who has pauline hanson One nation beliefs and 2: I liked and was meeting someone else and 3: who on earth would find someone like me attractive in the first place?. So I told mum, and she said “Don’t ever tell your father” bwahaha that’s so funny.
I had on my night in London by myself, an interesting discussion with an Iranian man, who was a resident of Dubai, living in london. He was writing a book of para-psychology? I didn’t quite get it. He was a psychologist none the less. He is writing about how some people use religion to get the population to do what they wish, like sheep. How people let their religious beliefs override common sense. He also didn’t like how psychology was taught these days. We both shared the same idea that Psychology should be learnt, not taught. I don’t know if everyone would agree with that, but there is something wrong with 23 yr olds providing counselling services (yes it happens in govt depts.) So after our chat he wanted to know if he could do anything for me. I asked if he could mend my heart, and he smiled and said, “no, but I can walk you to your hotel” I declined his offer, but our chat made me feel better.

I think Kenny Rogers is too brown and looks like he has had too much public surgery, and since I am watching Paid Adverts and they are advertising Time Life Country music CD’s, it is time for me to sleep.

I took several hundred photo’s and not all of them are going to be available however..
If you click on this link here You will see photos! There are 2 pictures where I am in them, good luck scouring each one. Or you can view some of the thumbnails below.. and i know they are screwed at the moment but i have to go out.. so i will fix later.

Top of the London Eye.. Looking down 50m to the ground.