I can’t think about things I want to write. So I will write here and there snippets of life that I have experience. I spoke in a previous post about my irrational fear of having anything put in my ear, well.. I have another fear I can talk about.

My fear of spiders.

i can pinpoint when that one occurred to when the family moved to Narrogin in South West of WA (in the wheat belt) and we lived on a farm.

This was an awesome lil farm, we grew our own vegies, strawberries and fruit. We had a paddock or two to play in, and there was a little creek running through the property, where we used to collect mushrooms and look for yabbies, and in summer we would go swimming in the deepest part of the creek as it was nice and cool.

One night, when we were watching Buck Rogers of the 25th Century (going back to about 1981, i think) We were in the lounge room, and i turned to look at mum, and saw this enormous spider sitting right next to her head. Well the innocent 7 yr old at the time says.. “mummy, what is that next to your head?” and mum turned and looked and then she screamed so loudly that both my sister and I got a fright and started screaming too.

So after we finished screaming, mum had run off to the bathroom in tears, and Dad had removed the spider, I somehow managed to collect my self.

How much was I scared of spiders really didn’t surface again till I was a teenager, when I was at my boyfriends house and we were going through a bunch of motherboards and stuff for computers and this big huge wolf spider was sitting on a board. I freaked out, and ran into the toilet and locked the door. His friends shoved the spider under the door and was running around, and i was standing on the toilet in screaming  hysterically. Eventually after everyone stopped laughing they realised I was still screaming and had to break down the door to rescue me. (sigh)

I made such an dick of myself.

People from India or Indonesia are finding my blog with the following term:

NUDE AUNTIES

Plus there is a plethora of rape, penis and vigrispam being thrown at my blog at about  30 spam comments every hour, or 1 spam per 2 minutes.. damn you spamgods.

yay for akismet, that is all i have to say on the matter!

not sure what i am going to post here today.

lets think of a childhood story. oh yes, i know.

I have an ear problem at the moment, and i refuse to go to the doctors about it. They want to syringe my ear, and i have a pathological fear of anything going into my ears.

It’s my childhood bad story. I had an ear infection when i was 10, mum thought that she would help, and warm up some oliveoil and put in my ear to warm up the wax.. slight problem, it was too hot.

Instead.. my eardrum was burnt. I screamed and screamed and mum took me to the hospital to fix up the burn in my ear, and now I can’t stand anything going near my ear.

However, I have to put these drops in my ear to try and fix the problem.. and i sit there and whimper and whine as i put eardrops in my ears and sound like a dick because of that fear. I have to get over it.

I decided to write about blogfights!

I got involved in one without meaning to. I commented on Lost Legionary’s blog (good read for those of us who are lefties) about a post he made about some dude TFS (who i think is a whirlpool user aswell). TFS has closed his blog once more due to blog stalkers.

We all have them in various forms, I don’t have a huge readership so I get all emo and no one laughs at me. Well not that I know about, but I do have some people who dislike me, reading my blog. Or those who are trying to find out more about my personal life. I basically said he needs to get over it.

Anyways, he cracked a sad at me, At legionary, for commenting about his blog closure, apparently we aren’t entitled to have opinions or make judgements blah blah.

He needs to grow up. We blog, it’s a community and like I tell others who use IRC and bitch about people taking part in public conversations, and you see it in various forums around the place, if he doesn’t like it, he can just ignore it.

I was reading the news earlier, about ben cousins, the death of that cricket coach for PK (i hear there is a job opening up) and read about some melbourne tunnel fires and came across an article in the ausrtalian IT section.

A US court has reversed a pr0n law.

The first two paragraphs read…

A US federal court has ruled that a 1998 law designed to block children from viewing internet pornography violates the US Constitution’s free speech protections.

The ruling sided with a challenge brought by the American Civil Liberties Union, which had argued that the provisions of the Child Online Protection Act were too restrictive.

Nice. Be interesting to see what happens next as the legal eagles and conservatives put their heads together.

What happened to parents taking responsibility for their own kids use of the internet?

My parents closely watched what my sister and I did on the PC (and this is going back when I was 18 and she was 16) and the computer was in the lounge room (btw.. talking 1991 here when we first hooked up to BBS’ and started meeting people online) So I figure this, if your kids don’t want you reading what they are writing, then they shouldn’t be doing it at all.

Well I was planning on having a good weekend, going out and having fun etc. However plans change on a 5 cent piece (dime) and now I find that my magical 48 hours of non work bliss is turning into hell.

One of the other TL’s at work, told me he was feeling sick today, and had some issues with some medication he is on, so he needs to take Saturday off. Just great, it’s the weekend that I am the standby TL for just such an occaision. I now have to work tomorrow, from 8.30am. I confirmed that he was working on Sunday, because last night dad rang me.

Dad told me he is going into hospital, and he wants me to go see him on Sunday. So I cancelled the outing I had  planned. Going to the movies with JJ and JH, and watching a 3d movie for $10, which is dirt cheap. I told my boss, that no, I wasn’t happy about working the Saturday, but the TL needed to have the day off, so that’s what I would do, but I really did need to have Sunday off to see my dad.

OK now for what I did tonight. Went out to a great restaurant in Northbridge, called New Orleans, and had some great food, and great company. Most of the people at the dinner from work but they were all the people i just love talking to. Nice mix of girls, and JH, the token gay white asian jewish penis boy (steph thats the one who’s head looked like a penis from behind) We had alot of fun, but the bizarre thing was the bitching happening down one end of the table.. like they were cutting sick at all sorts of people, then they started on one of MY girls in my team.. and i was like.. whoah! steady on, she’s not like that.. lay off.

Jeeze!

Good night overall tho

I am tired of crapping on about work, but I have been so busy this week.

The training at work took out several team leaders, so only left 3 watching 80 people all day, and me alone with 40 staff at 5.30, which dwindled down to 7 at closing time.

I had this insane customer yesterday, who keeps getting his calls escalatedto team leaders. He lives in Perth. The call centre is in Perth, and right now, there’s about 20 staff who he has yelled at, abused, lost trust with *cough*, berated, threatened who want to go a lynchin. We have instead chosen to direct our ire through humour, and passing around 25 cents to each consultant he abuses, since that’s how much he wants in credit for every call he makes. In the end he wanted to speak to my manager, who invited him to exercise his choice, and find a suitable telephone company to use. Apparently now he thinks we are good. Sigh.

Got into a discussion with someone about secret crushes on whirlpool last night. We all have em, and despite the fact that I have someone, I still have a girly crush on forum poster, cuz they are just so bright, their comments are pithy and humour is very sharp. So I wondered, if I have crush on someone, does that negate MM. So I discussed this with a gaggle of girls at work today, and we decided, that a crush is a crush. It’s not bad thing.  then we started gossiping about the new hot guys in sales, oh and a hottie in C.Care (where we were)  and yes.. lost track of the discussion.

So finally, back to something with work, we have to do this 360degree feedback thingy. I was very honest with one particular TL - because he needs to change one thing in particular, stop taking feedback on consultants as personal attacks on himself. We all get defensive about our staff, but sometimes, actually quite a few times, the feedback has merit.

Today was much better. I have dragged together the remnants of my mind, and set it to work. I have successfully coached 3 of my team up another grade each, now i have gone from 1 senior consultant to three seniors in my team! i feel the pressure has eased off somewhat.

I have built a bridge for the work issues, if those people wanna bitch that is just fine. Leave me out of it.

I still haven’t figured out what I want to use the saffron i purchased for yet. However, a saffron cheesecake sounds nice. If I do make it, i wlll take photo’s and describe how each forkful of delicious cheesecakey goodness tasted. If not, i guess you will just have to use your imaginations.

Someone i know got drunk over the weekend. His friends shaved his head, and now, when i see him in the call centre, I can’t stop laughing, he looks like a penis.  He really does. The colour of his skin is like.. Penis coloured. Seriously any males that are reading this, look down, that is what he looks like, circumsised. Truly scary.

i wonder how much comment spam I will get now.