The Angry Dieter

He’s arriving next week.

December 7th, 2009 | Tags: truly happy | Category: Blogging | Leave a comment

I haven’t written here in a while, mostly due to the fact I feel much happier about the life I have now.

I jave just returned from a two week trip to Sweden where I met my Swede’s family. It was quite possibly the busiest and best two weeks of my life.

During those two weeks a couple of things occurred to me, that the family of the man going to marry me was looking forward to seeing me. They were surely prepping questions about my family, myself. Could I meet their expectations? They’re definitely much more traditional than my family.

Something else occurred to me when I was travelling with the Swede around the Southern part of sweden, I still sometimes wanted to use X’s name in certain types of situations and phrases that I’ve used before would gurgle up to my lips and I’d have to think hard and not say what I was going to say. Before I got into this relationship, I didn’t know that I’d have these new issues. I guess you don’t know when it stops.

I talked to the Swede about it on one of our long drives during this visit. In the 3 years we’ve been together, I hadn’t said anything, but we will be living together soon enough as man and wife so at some point, I might accidently say my X’s name. So, I explained to him how this was something I was having problems with, not big problems but it is none the less an issue. He seemed to understand, as I said to him, I didn’t know who to talk about this with, since it wasn’t really something I have heard about from others in my friend circle - perhaps we are too ashamed to admit it.

Then I was struck with a thought, The Swede’s brother lost his wife 2 years ago, then he met someone new, She is lovely woman and they now have one child together. I theorised to my Swede that perhaps his brother was in a similar position, he seemed to think it was possible, but it’s not something a bloke shares really.

When I got to meet his brother for a second time, it was beautiful to see him smiling and cuddling his daughter. When I’d met him three years previously, he was full of love for life. Towards the end of the night I had a small chat with his new wife. I mentioned to her that I had been in a previous relationship and that I’d discovered I had problems now with breaking speech habits.

She asked what I meant, I told her about the name issue. That I have to watch what I say so I didn’t say my X’s name. She nodded and then mentioned that in the first few months of their relationship it was like that. But she felt after 18 months that it should have changed and she sometimes felt hurt. Then it was my turn to offer advice.. that he would not be doing it deliberately, that like me, he had to undo years of habits, that like me, he would be aware and would feel as bad as I do.

Then she switched back to the hostess like a light switching off and then it was time to go.

No one tells you about the small things that happen when you start new relationships when starting again after a long term relationship. Maybe they should write a book about that.

September 1st, 2009 | Category: Blogging | Comments (2)

I’ve added an iPhone application to my iPhone so I can blog a bit. Problem is, it saves it to local drafts and doesn’t uploaded… I must do something about that at a later point. I do have to admit I am totally in like with this iPhone and can’t wait till the Version 3 of the firmware comes out. I won’t buy one of the new phones, don’t need it really.

On the home front, I had been worried about asking my housemate to move out. It certainly was stressful for me having her live here, but we have managed for a year, but now the time has come. She must move. I need my space. Should be an amicable split! So many things I could write about over the year but, I don’t want her to read it all and feel insulted.

I am sure I am no angel to live with either, I don’t talk much, kept myself to myself most of the time. I guess some of the things that have irked me.. would be drinking wine from a pint glass.. that really is the only thing I found rather odd, maybe the fact she’s a WoW player and going on her first raids etc.

The lease has been renewed for another 12 months. I expect Peter and I will settle for a while then look at purchasing something together. I hope so…  I can’t stand renting, I want to be able to do my own thing, make the place awesome and enjoy the moments.  Only issue with the lease is the fact they want to increase it. They’ve advised it’s still economical, my argument would be, no interest rates have gone up, minimal maintenance has been done, certainly not enough to justify an increase.. but I guess that’s the real-estate game.

Work is for the most part is great.

I am apparently one of the few managers who like it and don’t feel stressed, however, many of them I have found think I am my manager’s best friend.  It’s not the case, however I can’t stop people thinking what they will.  My team is doing really well, best team ever

June 14th, 2009 | Tags: Friends, gadgets, iphone, landlords suck, rent | Category: Friends, Tenancy Blues, Work | Leave a comment

I have downloaded the latest App for iphone, could see myself doing more of the situational blogging with this app!

So I have some bits to write, I’ll log in properly and type away…

June 14th, 2009 | Tags: gadget, iphone | Category: Thoughts | Leave a comment

I’ve realised that I’m going to be 36 this year. Not a startling revelation. I think normally I haven’t worried about age because it’s not really been important to me. Never a factor in my attitude to life, to work. I feel like I am living the life I should have had when I was in my 20s.

What prompted the revelation? Grey hair. I started going grey when I left my previous relationship through stress. However those were small bits.. nothing major. When I was brushing my hair, I noticed today that there was a hair, that had been grey for a little while.. at least a few months.. it started off brown, then half way through turned silvery white. At least I’ll have a stylish colour when I do go all grey.

It’s not great surprise that age happens. It’s triggered in me a series of what if’s and a reminder of a conversation I had with my sister when she once commented that she felt like she had life pass her by.

Wow, I thought, she’s 2 years younger than me and already feeling like she is past it. I remember commenting that choosing to focus on age then sure it would be easy to feel … lifeless.

i don’t feel like I am getting older, I guess somethings ache a bit more.. my childbearing years… something else I think about, are probably past me now.

My life to date is the sum of my experiences and decisions that I have made. It’s a sombre thought really.

Work rocks, but I was struck with the thought, what have I contributed to my fellow team members at work, and I don’t know - probably nothing? I focus more on how I can help my team more than on what I can do to help my fellow team members. Should really think about that and look at what I can do for them.

June 5th, 2009 | Tags: age, life, working | Category: Blogging | Leave a comment

Well.. a song pops into mind after one does a serious intake of alcohol on a boozy night out. The infamous Tubthumping song. Should be the theme of the company I work for.

Our shiftband was closed down, and last night (22/04) was the last of the late nights. 2 weeks ago, I was talking to a couple of other managers and we decided to send out the late night band with a party and a bit of a bang.

I sent out invites, invited random managers and execs and everyone on the shift band. A really good turnout for the night, about 2/3rds of the band turned up. So in keeping with the awesome people I work with, I post this Utube link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fm4iU0yx9GY

Hats off chappies, thanks for all the fish.

April 24th, 2009 | Tags: drinking, drunk, tubthumping | Category: Blogging | Comments (2)

Work’s dropped back to something a little human in the way of work hours and as a result, I’m looking at going back to how I used to eat my food.

That would include loads of vegetables and cut down on the coffee. I’m trying to de-tox my body. What I don’t want to do is cause myself too much discomfort by hitting it too hard, but ease into de-toxing without too much fuss and fanfare.

Now I’m thinking this blog title is appropriate as I’ll be tracking my progress here, makes me feel better about it.

So today was day one of eating vegetables..

Had apple juice and an apple for breakfast

2 coffees [i did have a piece of carrot cake]

2 more apples [not enough time to get lunch today too many meetings]

Loads of veges, some mixed beans + almond butter and a sprinkling of balsamic vinegar

Tomorrow .. I have prepared lunch and dinner.

Veges (peas, carrots, onion, tomato, capsicum, cucumber, celery) more mixed beans + a teaspoon of almond butter

I also have bright yellow pee from the multivitamins.. Should glow in the dark soon!

April 22nd, 2009 | Category: Blogging | Comments (1)